Life isn't what you planned

Life never turns out the way you plan. The road you chose isn't necessarily the road you continue on. Life is constantly throwing you forks in the road. It's confusing. It's exciting. It's hard.

My life has recently taken a turn I never expected. Parts of myself that I forgot about and put on the back burner have come forward. I have never been a very religious person, however I have always fancied myself to be spiritual. I believe in the power of positive thinking and meditation and affirmations. I lost this part of myself for a long time to fit in with someone who I thought would be my life. I put my wanderlust on the shelf. I put my need for self-love on a shelf. I recently started to put my needs before others, something I have never done before. And many people in my life are supportive. One person however, isn't...because I stopped putting him first.

Maybe this is a path I shouldn't have started. Was it wrong of me to put someone else's needs before mine...because it lead him to a life where he is comfortable and his needs are being met while my needs are continuously suppressed away? And now that I want to put my needs first...it hurts him AND me. What is fair in this situation? Is anything fair? So many questions that I seek to find the answers too.

Life is hard. The answers I seek are hard to find. Will I ever find them? What path do I take?

Positive thought for the day: Great things are achieved by those who have no idea of the difficulty.